Maybe you can relate...
I worry. I worry all the damn time. About not being a good enough mom, not being a good enough wife, not being a good enough daughter, not being a good enough person, what I look like, not working out like I should, eating too much sugar, drinking, spending money, my house not being clean or as clean as it should be, not being good at my job anymore, what people think of me, and especially worry about trying to please everyone and not piss anyone off. I worry most about just being who I am! We get this ONE LIFE. I'm approaching the age of 36. I'm not old, but I'm not a spring chicken either. I want to enjoy my life and a lot of the time let the worry get in the way or affect me after I do anything. Tomorrow isn't promised. Why do I care what others think?!? Why should anyone else have control over me?! They don't clean my house, or pay my bills, they do not really know or take care of my children, they don't do my job or my husbands job, they are not the one married to me or married to my husband, they have never felt the exact heartaches I've lived through and grown through, or deal with my own personal demons. People have NO idea, but assume and will do and say whatever they want anyways. So, why the hell do I let anyone and everyone control my life?! Please tell me I'm hitting home with just one of you? Vulnerability like this is not easy at all for me and I'm laying it out there. God has a plan for each and everyone of us.
My anxiety is extremely high when I post a simple social media post. It's time to not care what others think. I genuinely want to relate to people and people to relate to me. I want to share positive and fun pieces of life. There isn't room for negativity anymore. When Sarah and I transitioned from Barn Charming we had so many goals in mind. To connect with people is one of our greatest goals. None of the goals have changed, we just have taken some time to get there. It's not easy putting ourselves out there all the time and being vulnerable.
Today I have changed my mindset to live a healthier life. A better me. I don't just mean physically, but emotionally and mentally too! No doubt I'm going to have ups and downs still. We all do. That's life and me, but I'm done apologizing for being myself. My qualities are what make me ME! I'm quirky, goofy, wear my heart on my sleeve, very outgoing, opinionated, bossy, too honest sometimes, talkative, extremely loyal, and care an awful lot about others. It is time to focus all of my energy and effort on myself, God, family, friends, and then whatever is left goes to everyone else.
Who else wants to join in on the journey to a better you? Healthy mind, body, and spirit. I think it's going to take me a long ways :) One.Day.At.A.Time.
XOXO - Britney
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